Burned.

I've had to be too strong for too long. It finally broke me.

That's what real love looks like.

Moved on.

I won. Rare are the times I lost. I fall to better walk later. I was six feet under, and I cry my eyes out. I cry enough to fill the rivers. But now I am happy and I can thank myself. People criticize, they love destroying everything around you, it makes them feel powerful. But they aren't. They are the weakest thing in the world. And now they are alone and they want to be loved and forgiven. It doesn't work like that. What goes around, comes always back around.

Disappeared.

Tired of waiting for you to give me new. I'm fed up. Always wondering why you're so silent. Something's changed, and I don't know what. It's not the same anymore. I don't know how long it will last.

Escape.

Jump and touch the sky.

Sweetness.

I can touch the sky. And I'm not used to this. I've almost forgotten what it feels like to feel great and filled with happiness. I throw away sadness and ill-being. And I feel Good. I was locked up in the dark for so long that I thought brightness wouldn't come now. And I know I deserve it. I've been hurt for so many times before that now I deserve to be happy and to have a great weight off my mind.
It was just a matter of time...

Appeased.

I thought that nobody would touch me like he did it. I thought that no one would be able to make me feel good. I thought that sadness would be my best friend for a while. I thought that I couldn't let anyone crash into my life. I thought I was locked up in a world that wasn't mine, in a life that was full of memories taking me back to him. Then, you arrived. And you changed everything. You give me affection that nobody gave me. You are the one who kiss me when I sleep. The one who say that you missed me when I come back home. You are the one that makes me realize that good boys still exist. And I want to thank you for the strength you give me every time I see your smile.

Can't wait to see you burn.

I hate you. More than you can imagine. I hate your cowardice, your selfishness, your lack of empathy. I hate your lack of conscience telling you everything is alright. I hate how you moved on so fast. I hate how you left me behind. I hate how badly you changed my life and how you changed me. I hate my fucking broken heart and I hate what I became because of you. I hate your face, I hate your name. I hate your stupid way of thinking. And I hate myself for still writing and speaking about you.

Chaos.

Chaos in my head. Chaos in my heart. Chaos in my body. Chaos in my feelings. Chaos in my thoughts. Chaos in my hopes. Chaos in my wishes. Chaos in my relationships. Chaos in my life.

Left behind.

M'as tu écoutée quand j'essayais de te parler ? Est ce que tu te souciais de ce que j'étais en train de traverser ? C'est comme tu ne m'avais jamais connue. Sais tu à quel point ça fait mal ? Je ne trouve même plus les mots. What the hell's wrong with you ?